A CHRISTMAS WISH

Time to thank one again... 'cause the reasons for thanking GOD are endless


Another Christmas night has passed, and with it, the never missing gifts have come as well.
Even through adversity and right when hope seemed to be gone, the allmighty lord showed us a great time. I can't say it was perfect *there's always my daddy missing* but I found great comfort in my sis' smiling face everytime she got a little giftie, or in my mother's expression of happiness when we were awed by her little give aways.

This is the time when I think, cry, and wish I had much more. But not in the selfish way I could have thought before, and just to give myself all the things I want as capriche, but to take off the worries of my daddy's old and hardworking back. I wish I had more to give my mother all the things she deserves for getting over my bratty self. I wish I had more, to pamper my little, and precious sister to the greatest end...

I wish I had a lot more to help others, to help those families in my country that know no happiness. To grant those miserables in the shouting streets, a life close to mine, a happy life with no privations.

Now, as a Christmas Wish, I beg for strenght.
Strenght and determination to reach high peaks.
I beg for your blessing over my "impossible" projects, and I look forward to the chances.
In return, I promise to give out my talent without reserve.
I promise hardwork to the bounds of my capacities, and overall I promise to give all of myself to others. Show all of myself... love as you did, to no known limit.

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For my beloved Christmas Miracle

Thanks for being here *in my mind and heart* in this time of my life.
It's been just a few days since I know you, but I can tell already... I LOVE YOU
Thanks for reviving my true smile, the smile of true happiness.
Thanks for making me feel what being loved is.
Thanks for your time, your words, your jokes...
In short, my love... THANKS FOR EXISTING!

GRAB SOME AIR and... SUN-SHINE

A few more steps towards... H~E~A~V~E~N

*A backdated entry... thanks to the numbness that emotion caused to my whole self*

Unpredicatable!
That's how my life has been for the past few days, and right not for breaking the recently adopted habit of going with the flow, yesterday was one of those days, another brilliant chance of living.

Normal day? NO, it was not a normal day... it was THE FIRST DAY in the one meant to be a magical journey!
The so promised meeting was planned, arranged and succesfully executed, but not without leaving the little "something-was-missing" feeling, to play the perfect excuse for a another secretly necessary date.

How did it happen? I have no clue; all I'm sure about now, is that it was PERFECT.

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Unconfidence, which could have been called my "trademark" till the day, was wiped out before I could start worrying about it. The simple view of that beautiful smile I saw in the multiple dreams I couldn't recall, was the cure. And so we were there, no traced plan..., no schedule or pre-made guide to follow... there was no option left but to go with the flow.

It started with simple walking..., then talking and laughing. A simple entrance for the giving of a precious gift, the timeless seconds of deep glance, the silent links sealed with a smile. But just as it happens with the good things in life, time flew from our hands.

Not too much, not too little. A perfect dosis I would say

The First STEP

I can't count a week yet but... I already feel the changing winds!
DARE!
The little action that has been my stigma.
The expert stranger that closed opened doors.
You cruel enemy of happiness.
Counter-attack time has come.

The first good step was unconsciously given, right when all the caution warnings were hidden.
For once in a life, there were no prejudices, no fear for failing, no speculation, there was finally no a single trace of danger. The first binding was broken.

And it is now that I thank the supreme being upheaven, for losening the ropes of my mistrust and let my eyes see new horizons... I thank for the existance of those horizons, and the God-done plots that wait for us there... I thank for those plots and their twists, because they make the uncertainty of life turn into the magic adventure I've always dreamed... and I thank at last for the uncertainty that made me go with the flow, because this God-blessed flow's final stop was Y♥U.